I have a couple of things on my mind tonight.
First, I'm kinda pleased with myself right about now. While my husband may see me as a confident, take-no-shit, "Are you certain you want to talk to me with that tone?", stand-up kind of woman, I have not always been so. It has only been through my experience with my ex-husband that I have developed a spine. Knowing how far I allowed myself to be kept down really makes me appreciate my own voice and my ability to make a different choice. Ryan knows with no uncertainty how I expect him to treat me... and he does treat me very well. But... there has always been a residual fear when it comes to my ex. Oppression is a tough thing to kick, even 8 years after I left him. I'm not sure how, but I still have difficulty asserting myself with that man. I know I have no need to be timid... heck... I could literally break him if need be. I find myself being overly accommodating, which was never extended to me... ever. Well tonight I had a bit of a break-through. I had been talking with him for the last week about plans to bring the kids back home from West Virginia, and as per usual, he spent a lot of time talking about plans and excuses. Tonight I decided to take the reins and tell him what the plans are going to be. No anger... no attitude... just fact. I'm coming to get them Saturday because they have to be home by Sunday. No wondering about when they'll come home... no waiting on him to make a decision and then change it at the last minute...no relying on him to have gas money. He responded well... "Um... alright." So this is hopefully the first of many positive experiences in dealing with him.
So the other thing. Tanya had some free sneak-preview passes to see "Swing Vote" so we went. I'm not a Kevin Costner fan, so I probably would have never seen it... even on cable. But, I'm glad I went. I really enjoyed it and it actually stimulated some thought. Gist: Some drunken slob gets the opportunity to cast the deciding ballot in the Presidential race that is completely tied up. Unlikely... but it definitely showed an exaggeration of political pandering that has most of America distrustful of politics. Drunken slob says to a reporter that he thinks gay people should be allowed to marry; next scene shows the republican president in a commercial discussing his commitment for equal rights for gays. Very funny. The democratic candidate did commercials against immigration and abortion... equally funny. But how far from the truth is it really? I mean, I get a good feeling about Obama... but do warm fuzzies mean he is sincere about what he says? I'm definitely going with my feeling because I was right about dub-ya.